That about sums up last night's episode of The Bachelor.  Now, I've never been a big fan of The Bachelor but I will have to admit, I did watch the complete season of The Bachelorette with Tristan and Ryan and a worthwhile season too because they are the only couple from the reality television show to still be together!

With that said, I wanted to express my utter disappointment with last night's episode.  Now, before the season was aired, ABC hyped up the audience about a scandal that occurs on the show, something that has never happened before.  Turns out, one of the contestants (yes, contestant because that's what they really are) had previously dated one of the producers.  What?  No way!  She had dated someone before coming to the show!  That's so preposterous!  (That's me trying to be sarcastic...)

My point here is that the hot model Rozlyn Papa was kicked out of the show for something everyone does.  Now, I know what you're all thinking, she shouldn't have been dating one of the "staffer".  But isn't the point of finding love to date and to find out if someone could be that special someone; what if the producer had been "the one".  And um, isn't the Jake, the Bachelor, dating all those girls on the show at the same time? He went on a group date and was holding two different hands at the same time.  I mean, Papa dated the producer before the show began.  It's not like she was screwing both of them at the same time; which might be what Jake does before the end of the season.  So why is ABC making a big deal out of all this?  Yes, you guessed it, ratings! 

What happened to finding real love?  Do people really need to go on a reality tv show to find love?  If Flavor Flav can't find love on a reality tv show, what makes average people think they're going to find love on reality tv show?

***I will admit that Michelle is hilarious!  With all the crying and psychotic mood swings.  I love how she pulled Jake aside and pours out her heart about how she didn't get a date with him and he nods his head saying he knows how she feels but he's really thinking, "You're crazy!"  We know she's only on the show because the producers and viewers love her insecurities. ***

I've had it with girls who love, love drama.  It has again occurred to me that I am yet again the talk of the town.  And when it all comes down to it, I just wished these girls would have the audacity to walk up to me and just ask me the truth because I would tell them the truth if they gave me the time of day.

An ex-friend of mine, who I guess you could say was never really my friend to begin with, saw me at the bar the other day and she walked right pass me and screamed the name of one of my friends who had gone with me to the bar.  She gave her this big hug and had her back turned to me as if I didn't exist.  I wasn't mad or anything; I just figured she was going to remain immature until the end of time and I wasn't going to waste my time apologizing over and over again for what I did when I really didn't do anything wrong but expressed how I felt.  As the night progress, she got little more intoxicated and the more intoxicated she gets the more revealing she becomes.  As I was driving home that night with my friend (Tess) informs me why our ex-friend (Blue) is still mad at me and refuses to talk to me or acknowledge me.  Turns out that Blue's friend Zee thinks I'm trying to steal her boyfriend.

Now, here's the story with Zee and her boyfriend Dan.  I met Dan two years ago while playing basketball at a local park with a group of friends.  Dan and I became really good friends within a small time frame.  Now, Dan's a pretty good looking guy, tall, and has a lot going for him.  Dan and Zee were not together at the time when Dan and I became friends; in Dan's words, Zee didn't want to be in a relationship with him because she was keeping her options open.  And she was.  When Zee found out that Dan and I were become good friends she freaked out and demanded that Dan end things with me.  Dan refused because there was nothing to end, we were just friends.  Zee threw a thousand fits but Dan vouched for our friendship and I greatly appreciated it.

However, a few months ago, Zee psychotically texted and phone and facebooked me telling me to stay away from her man, whom I had probably seen once or twice since Christmas.  When I see craziness like that I would rather end my friendship than end up dead.

So when Tess tells me that Blue is mad at me not because of what we initially thought but because her friend Zee doesn't like me and is under the impression that I'm "trying" to steal her boyfriend, I can't help but feel like I'm reliving middle school.

It irks me when grown women sit around gossiping and accusing other women of things that has and never will happen.  They let their insecurities get the best of them and they let their lack of trust in other women skewed their perspective of what's real and what's not.  If Zee had bother to asked me what was going on with Dan, I would tell her the truth --- I tutored him in his English/Literature class, I helped revised a few papers for him, he called me up one night telling me that he wanted to kill himself because Zee was with another man, I gave him advice on how to apologize even if he felt like he wasn't wrong, and I was there as a friend; truth be told, Dan treated me like I was his best guy friend; I mean he told me things I never needed to hear.  And Dan to me was like a best girl friend.

I guess what bothers me is that crazy grown up who love drama and live in drama need to act their age.  I'm not the type to beat around the bush; if I think you have a problem with me, I'll ask you about it and I'll try to apologize or explain the situation and if you refuse to listen to me then it's no longer my problem it's yours and if I have a problem with someone I let them know how I feel and if they don't do anything about it then I know it's not worth my time to be friends with them ...

I guess what I'm trying to say is, I wished that these girls would stop being drama queens and learn to be adults and act like adults.